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{dear baby} For my baby… November 19, 2009

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Madelyn @ 32 weeks gestation period

Dear baby,

You are our love at first sight. You are the most perfect thing in life that we know. We are incredibly honoured that you have chosen us to be your parents. We promise to give you all that we can so that you can be the best that you are and can be. We promise to shower you with unconditional love, affection, and kindness while patiently guide you through every step of your life.

Mommy and daddy love you so much. Mommy had no idea that she could fill her heart with so much love until you came along. Every time mommy and daddy talk to you while you are in mommy’s belly, you would respond to us by squirming and kicking to reassure us that you know who we are in your life. You are truly a precious blessing to us. Nothing else in our lives can quite compare to what you made us feel as parents-to-be.

You will be here soon, in fact, in just a matter of days now. Mommy will miss feeling you inside her belly all the time, but we can’t wait to be able to hold, smell and cuddle you in our arms.

Mommy and Daddy


My belly grew again! November 17, 2009

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I got back from my routine doctor’s visit today and was elated to find out that I did not gain any weight from last week. I’m topping the scale at 150 pounds at the moment and surely hope that I do not gain anymore!

Despite the lack of weight gain, I swear that my belly grew again, and my belly button is hurting from the waistline expansion (again!)

Dr. Tai is scheduled to be on call at the hospital (Toronto East General Hospital/TEGH) from Friday morning until Saturday morning, so we wonder if our little baby will make an appearance then to meet the doctor who has been looking after us the entire journey. Though it might be a cool idea, Andy is planning to write his accounting finals on Saturday, so I hope that he doesn’t get distracted by the baby on the way…

Belly pic @ 38 weeks November 16, 2009

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Look at how big my little buddha has gotten in my belly! I’m so proud of her for being so healthy, big and strong despite giving me horrible ugly stretch marks (yikes!). I’m so excited for lil’ Madelyn’s arrival. Just the other night, I dreamt about bring her home in her car seat from the hospital 😛

I’m sure I can do something about the stretch marks later on, and I have been lathering up on all sorts of oils and creams since I was 5 weeks pregnant. I guess it’s truly genetics when it comes to stretch marks, o’ well… as long as my baby is healthy, happy and strong, that’s all that matters!


Maternity Photoshoot November 16, 2009

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I took the opportunity to capture the wonderful moment of my life of expecting my little baby when a friend of mine recommended her friend who is a photographer. These pictures were captured when I was in my week 35. My belly has grown quite a bit since then (it’s now 38 weeks!!)

Thanks to Emma from Emma McIntyre Photography who is based in Toronto for the beautiful shots!

DIY Thank You Cards November 12, 2009

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It took me quite some time to make these cards as I gathered the material for it. Since the baby shower theme was pink and brown, it was only appropriate that I use the same colour scheme for the Thank You cards. I bought the card stock and stamps from Michael’s and the recycled paper were Doris’ contribution. She makes and demonstrates recycled paper making at the Ontario Science Centre here in Toronto, where she works.

Anyway, they are finally done and were sent out last week! I hope to have time to make my own birth announcements too 😛

Round Ligament Pain November 5, 2009

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Lately, I have been feeling unwell because of a certain kind sharp, stabbing pain on the right inner thigh and around the groin area. I thought that I have pubic symphysis disorder, but apparently if that was the case,  I would not be able to even go to work. Some women even report that they can hear a grinding noise coming from their pelvic bones if it they have PSD. Therefore I have decided through self-diagnosis that I have round ligament pain.

So what is round ligament pain? Here’s what I found:

Round ligament pain is due to normal changes that take place in the body during pregnancy. It is caused by stretching of the round ligaments attached to the uterus. More commonly it occurs on the right side of the pelvis.

Typically in the non-pregnant state the uterus is about the size of an apple or pear. There are thick ligaments which hold the uterus in place in the abdomen, referred to as round ligaments.

During pregnancy, your uterus will expand in size and weight, and the ligaments supporting it will have to stretch, becoming longer and thinner. As these ligaments pull and tug they may irritate nearby nerve fibers, which causes pain. The severity of the pain in some cases can seem extreme.

Some common symptoms of round ligament pain include:

  • Ligament spasms or contractions/cramps that trigger a sharp pain typically on the right side of the abdomen.
  • Pain upon waking or suddenly rolling over in your sleep.
  • Pain in the abdomen that is sharp brought on by exercise or other vigorous activity.
  • Moving very slowly while engaging the core muscles

Anyway, I have been in pain and this makes me feel that I am so done and over with this pregnancy *guilty*. I am fine when I am seated or lying down, but the worse is having to climb the steps, which I have to do since I take the public transit to go to work. I am still able to walk slowly (or waddle, if you look at me now) but yesterday, I had to run across the street to catch the bus and I had to use my hands to lift my belly to minimize the pain. I thought enough was enough, and everyone kept asking me if there was such thing as a support belt to help lift the weight of the baby.

So with just a few weeks left in this pregnancy, I refuse to buy anything else that is maternity related (at least not for post-partum), I looked for a maternity support belt on Craigslist. I saw a new one that Medela sells for $45 and I thought that was wayyy too much for something that I will only be using for a few weeks, but I found a used one that by Emma Jane that was being sold for $10.

I bought the belt from the seller and it helped quite a bit, but not completely. A few things that I have been doing that had helped with the symptoms along with using the belt includes:

  • Inhaling and engaging the core muscles (sucking in the belly button) before I stand up or put any weight on my feet to help lift the weight of the baby – this helps tremendously
  • Doing my Kegel exercises
  • Taking a warm shower
  • Rest as much as I can

Nurseries that inspire me November 5, 2009

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We won’t be able to have a nursery for lil’ Madelyn just yet, seeing how cramped we are with space at the moment while we camp out at Andy’s parents house. This does not stop me from poring over other people’s nurseries online on Ohdeedoh and taking a flight of fancy on how our nursery would be when we are able to have one. Here are some pictures that inspire me at the moment. I’ll post more of them whenever I see one that strikes my fancy.

P/S: Click on the images to see the nursery tour (if available).

I like the play of the bright yellow against the dark grey walls in this nursery by a creative mommy and fellow blogger from Toronto. Not to mention the nice flower painting on the wall. very modern and yet suitable for a child. The crib looks similar to ours, which was a very inexpensive item compared to other things that we have bought as we prepare for Madelyn’s arrival. Looks like the Ikea’s Sniglar or Gulliver (we have the Gulliver). This proves that inexpensive items can still make a room looking fabulous!

This nursery is awesome because it is in the attic. I fell in love with this crib (the Ouef Sparrow) because of this nursery. We will never be able to afford this crib, and for a moment, we were going to paint our Ikea Gulliver grey because of this crib. I love the pink with the grey of the crib, and the bright yellow-green color on the walls.

If only we were able to get this crib in Canada. It is Walmart’s Baby Mod Park Lane crib that doesn’t cost much and has a drawer under the crib. I love this nursery because it is so mod! I love the nursing chair/glider (which we don’t have because we couldn’t afford one and there isn’t any space for it), and if you check out the nursery tour by clicking on the picture, you will see the Nelson bubble lamp, old school bookshelves, and the vintage wall clock. The sasquatch poster on the wall is also very cute withouth being nauseating 😛 I love the mix of old and new in this nursery!

Here’s the Oeuf Sparrow crib again. The fact that it is grey makes it look oh-s0-mod, don’t you think? And here’s the yellow wall again on the left of the picture. Love the pink bedding against the grey of the crib.

My 5 Senses {blog tag} November 5, 2009

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I’ve been tag by Whimsicaljottings (I’m honoured!) and here goes….

Rule # 1 To display this tag on your blog

Rule # 2 Post the rules

Rule #3 Link back to the blog that tagged you

Rule # 4 Make a list of the 5 senses and what each one represents for you

Rule # 5 Tag 5 other blogs and let them know!

My 5 senses are as follows:

  • Sight: Seeing acts of random kindness from people puts a smile on my face. It reminds me that humanity still lives.
  • Smell: Nothing beats a whiff of intoxication from the durian fruit. I brings me back home to Malaysia instantly!
  • Taste: Can I say durian again? LOL! And can I add nasi lemak, roti canai, sambal, rendang, chee cheong fun, popiah, kari laksa and the whole range of nyonya delicacies? 😛
  • Feel: This may sound weird, but I love to touch Andy’s soft earlobes.
  • Hear: The voices of my sisters, mom and dad over Skype. Oh and the dogs at home too, when they are aroud the computer.

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{dear baby} In the beginning… November 4, 2009

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Hi baby,

Today, mommy has decided to let you know how it all started… how you came along in our lives.

Mommy went home to Malaysia to celebrate Chinese New Year in January of 2009. Mommy went home alone this time because daddy had to work and we only had enough Avion points (RBC’s credit card points that we used to redeem the air ticket) for one. Mommy’s grandpa (dad’s side) was also not feeling too well, so what better time to go home to see him if not now. Mommy also knew that her workplace morale was running low due to job cuts, she was worried that she might lose all her vacation days if she didn’t take them before being cut. Mommy was paranoid about losing her job because she was merely a contract worker.

Mommy came back to Canada on the night of Valentine’s Day (Feb 14, which was a Saturday) and daddy picked her up at the Toronto Pearson Int’l Airport with a special meal… Lick’s Nature Burger, LOL! A good veggie burger was hard to find in Malaysia and mommy was gone for about a month. We drove back to Windsor on the same night.

Mommy got her period the next Saturday (Feb 21, 2009) and that is the date that the doctors ask for when they need to figure out when you are due. We don’t really know when you were conceived, but mommy lost her job at the end of February. Mommy tried to take it with stride, and hoped for something better to come a long. A month later, daddy also lost his job at National Bank of Canada. We were very, very sad. Mommy was a wreck and her emotions were tumultuous.

At this point, mommy’s period was about 1 week overdue and she was worried. She took a home pregnancy test and it came out negative. Two weeks later, mommy thought that we should go to the walk-in clinic on Huron Church Rd. in Windsor to confirm the pregnancy test because mommy’s boobs were hurting and it wasn’t the normal kind of hurt prior to her period. She was also getting tired easily.  Daddy was with mommy at the clinic and the nurse was not very kind to us because we showed up to take a pregnancy test. She said that we were wasting government’s money while we could have just done the test at home. Anyway, we did the test, and the doctor came to see us after mommy gave a urine sample. He asked if we took a test at home, and we said yes. He asked what it told us, and we said, it was negative. He told us that his test came back positive, and that was when we knew that you were part of our lives. Mommy and daddy could not wait to share the news with our families when we got home, and we told mommy’s parents first since we could not get a hold of daddy’s parents. Everyone was very happy to hear the good news. A test not much later revealed to us that you were 5 weeks old in mommy’s womb.

Meanwhile, mommy did not how know to react to the news. Mommy had no idea how things will be down the road for us and was very upset that things were not going the way that she wanted before you were to come along. Mommy and daddy were both unemployed and renting an apartment in Windsor, and we had to decide fast on a plan. Jobs were scarce in the Windsor-Detroit area, so we decided to move to Toronto. Daddy asked his parents if we could move in with them and they said OK.

Mommy really wanted a house and have everything in its place in her life before you come along so that she could give you the best of the best. All these changes were too much for her to handle and she cried constantly because she felt sorry and irresponsible for bringing you into this world before she had a chance to make sure that everything is perfect for you.

At this point, mommy’s cooking club friend, Jillian who is a psychologist mentioned that the Children’s House Montessori kindergarten might be looking for a kid’s yoga teacher. One of her patients goes to that school and apparently the yoga teacher had just left for Australia. Mommy went to ask about the position, and was offered the job right away. Mommy used to teach yoga before she broke her arm mountain biking with daddy. Mommy will tell you about that another time… Mommy would teach yoga to kids aged 2 and a half to 6 years old about 3 days a week, for a total of about 6 hours a week. It didn’t pay much, but at least we had money for gas to get around town and some food.

Mommy actually started teaching kids yoga before she knew that you were in her tummy. Mommy would come home after teaching 2+ hours of kids yoga and be wiped out. Daddy would sometimes cook lunch for us, and there were days that mommy could not stand the smell of garlic, even from the front door of the apartment. Daddy had not even cooked the garlic yet and it was just chopped garlic and it would make mommy very nauseas. Mommy did not have much of an appetite for anything except for noodles initially. There was one night while we were still in Windsor, and mommy had a sudden craving for spring rolls. It was 1a.m. and mommy asked daddy to go and find her some spring rolls 😛 One night, mommy wanted a cherry danish and daddy had walk to 2 different Tim Horton’s to look for it. He wasn’t able to find one and came home with a half-drunk cup of not-so-hot hot chocolate instead. Of course that didn’t cut it and mommy was not happy.

Anyway, mommy and daddy were busy packing for our move to Toronto. We made the move in a few trips, with the majority of the things moved with a rented U-Haul and the help of daddy’s dad on May 29th. After the big move, mommy and daddy had to go back to Windsor to clean up the apartment because our landlord was a very meticulous man. We finally settled in at grandma and grandpa’s place in Toronto on June 6th.

Mommy had a job interview on June 1st with Moneris Solutions as a Learning Designer. Mommy really needed this job in order to qualify for maternity unemployment benefits in Canada. All the years that mommy had worked in Detroit could not count towards the hours worked needed to receive that benefit despite having paid all the Canadian taxes. Anyway, mommy thought that the interview went fine, and a few days later, mommy was offered the job. Mommy was elated despite the fact that it was only for 6 months on contract with no benefits. It didn’t matter because it would count towards the hours needed for the unemployment pay, which is 400 full time hours.

Mommy should also mention that she was very worried about her belly showing at the interview because she might not be able to get the job if the prospective employer knew that she was pregnant with you. Mommy was about 4 months pregnant at that time. Mommy did not intend to lie, but we needed the money. Mommy began work on June 15th and soon cleared up the situation with her boss, who did not see an issue with the pregnancy, although mommy would not be able to complete the 6 months gig with them before you make an appearance.

So mommy went to work via the subway and since daddy did not have a job yet, he would take mommy to the Finch subway station every morning so that she didn’t have to wait for the bus at the shelter. That’s basically what happens about 5 days a week for a few months until recently, when daddy finally got a job at the same building as mommy. Mommy will write about that next time.

Mommy still doesn’t know what to make of what happened to her and daddy in the past few months while you sat in mommy’s womb growing healthily. Mommy has been lucky is so many ways, despite being given the biggest blow in life when she lost her job. At least daddy was always around whenever we would go to see Dr. Tai to see how you were progressing, and he was always around to drive mommy anywhere she wants to go. Mommy’s emotional state was so fragile that if daddy weren’t around all these while, she would probably have gone cuckoo.

Anyway, it’s past midnight now and we should really get some rest.

Love you!

Muacks xoxoxoxo